Many of our escapes are involuntary: addiction and dissociating from painful feelings are two examples. Anyone who has worked with a strong addiction—compulsive eating, compulsive sex, abuse of substances, explosive anger, or any other behavior that’s out of control—knows that when the urge comes on it’s irresistible. The seduction is too strong. So we train […]
The purpose of the Enneagram is not self-improvement, which would be our ego’s goal. Rather, it is the transformation of consciousness so that we can realize our essence, our True Self. Personality development and character building will happen on the side as a corollary, but this is not its primary goal. The primary goal of
Face the shadow side of yourself, but do not identify with it. It represents only part of who you are. Totally identifying with the shadow leads to much evil in the world. If you live there, you will be driven and motivated by fear, guilt, shame, and even malice. So there is a difference between
Holy Wisdom and Prayer There is a brokenness out of which comes the unbroken, A shatteredness out of which blooms the unshatterable. There is a sorrow beyond all grief which leads to joy, And a fragility out of whose depths emerges strength. There is a hollow space too vast for words, Through which we pass
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A beautiful Interview with Reverand Jacob Watson. Check out his wonderful book, Essence.
The Material Energies Dispersed Energy (E12)-heat is the energy of motion without direction Directed Energy (E11)-arises when motion has a consistent direction. Gravitation has a force field that has direction, down. Cohesive Energy (E10)-the energies by which things are held together, gives solids and liquids their cohesion. It’s the very basis of the structure of
Deeper Self Observation: Journaling (p 448) When the last paper was read here it was suggested by Mrs. Nicoll that people should observe their inner angry conversations and their own particular forms of self-justifying which repeat themselves continually in these deeply negative states that were spoken of in the paper. I am speaking now to
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The Negative Emotions Various states of depression Various kinds of self-pity and self-hatred (self-hatred is a more subtle form of self-pity) Various kinds of persisting resentment Of feeling badly treated, not being estimated at your proper value—do you know who I am?! Vanity…you don’t recognize my greatness, fuck you! Lamenting, feeling oh so bad about…a
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In making effort on some side of oneself, such as some particular form of being negative (judging, vanity, self-pity, superiority, envy, jealousy, complaining), remember that everything goes in cycles in oneself —that is, everything comes round at certain intervals. It is not that these intervals are regular, but that things recur or return, internally, sometimes
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